So much to wonder...

Do you ever have those times in life where you just "wonder" what to do next? I do. Surely I know that God has everything all planned out for me/us. Then I wonder what is next. I wonder and then I wonder some more. Will we_______or will we ________, but maybe we will _______. After a while my head can spin. Then I've got to come back to what I know. Wait upon the Lord. I think that this is hard to do. Waiting upon the Lord means that we let go of the wheel and let him drive.

Seriously, how easy is this for any woman. You know what I mean, when your husband is driving and is "lost", but according to him he knows where he is! I suggest that we stop and ask for directions but he shares with me, "I don't need directions, I know exactly where we are." I proceed to ask him where we are and he looks around and around and reluctantly says "north". Good call honey. We end up on a dirt road with those terrible chatterbumps - now I can presume that we are lost but he assures me that he is just "taking the scenic route." By this point I am sure that we would have been to our destination if we had stopped for directions. But noooo, we are too proud to ask....now I don't understand this, but most often (not all the time) we will end up at a road we know and sure enough we arrive at our destination. He proudly proclaims "see, I knew where we were all the time."

Sometimes I think that when Jesus is driving he makes a few wrong turns along the way and I'd like to stop and ask for directions. (from myself) Now Jesus is never actually lost, but doesn't it feel like it sometimes? We're going along good - trusting Jesus along the way - you feel like you are being an awesome passenger - then boom - he takes a turn that you think is the wrong way. We quickly become a passenger driver "not this way, are you sure? Jesus, do we really need to take this dirt road, it's not fun, let's take the nice paved road. I don't know where were going - we seem lost." We even try to take the wheel and steer for him. But Jesus calmly drives along reminding us that his way is the best way and we will be safer if we allow him to drive.

We can trust Jesus when we're going the direction we want him to take us, but what happens when he leads us out of our comfort zone? I am really convicted of this as I type this out. Lord, keep my mind and heart set on what is unseen not on what is seen.

"What is unseen is eternal." Let Jesus take the wheel! This is an older song, but one that came to my mind after I wrote tonight.