Being fickle!

I am so fickle sometimes. I am thankful that God has lifted me up to a point of trust in him that my fickless doesn't last too long. Last night I was so at peace and sure of God's direction. (even though I'm not sure what it is) This morning I woke up with thoughts of the "what if". What if we don't have insurance, what if God doesn't open up something new soon, what if, what if, what if...the enemy does not want me to live in the peace and confidence of Jesus Christ. The "what if's" needed to go, and go quickly. In his awesome love for me he took care of that. I am sure that they will bounce back here and there but hopefully they will be just fleeting thoughts.

God has not done all the work he has in our life and the lives of our children to drop us now. He is a God that knows our plans and our future. He has equiped us to serve in much deeper ways. Relationship with Jesus is what matters. All the other stuff is just stuff, but Jesus love for us is so deep. I heard a preacher once say "imagine that the Almight God is proposing to you"! He wants to be so close to us. That is what I long to grow even deeper in.

This morning I went to physical thereapy for an issue that has nagged at me for two years. I finally went to see Sherry, the best PT around. She has taken my pain level from an 8 down to a 3 in two visits already. I love how God gifts people to help others. She is a Christian and as she was working on me she noticed Tim glancing through a book that she had in her office. She began to tell him that the young man that wrote the book was an athiest when he wrote the book. (she knew him well) He took off for Alaska to see the world, hiked, went off into the wilderness, hitch-hiked and met many people. It was on this journey that he discovered God. He is now a born again Christian and even feels embarassed by the book he wrote before.

Sherry let Tim borrow the book to read. Funny though, as he is reading it today, he can tell by his writing that the Holy Spirit was already working on his heart while he was writing the book. He just didn't know it yet:)

So here I am, blogging and watching "Dances With Wolves". (I'm a multi-tasker) Smiling again at the way God works in my life. Making me stronger each day and the patience that he has with me.
We never know how the Holy Spirit is going to work in our lives. Ask him to come into your life and you better watch out...it will be amazing!