Search Me

Ever complained about your life?
Ever wondered what God was doing in your life?
Ever thought God was wrong and that your plan seemed better?
I think we can all say yes to these questions. This morning I was finishing up Job and the words hit me pretty hard. God spoke to Job and said "Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him? Let him who accuses God answer him!" Maybe you don't ever think that your actually accusing God, but when we complain about where we are or our circumstances we really are accusing him of not doing the right thing. Can you imagine actually having to answer back to God after our grumbling! I know that I would fall down and feel horrible.

God went on to tell job to do some things, like adorn himself with glory and splendor, or clothe himself in honor and majesty, or unleash the fury of his wrath, and even crush the wicked. Then God said to him "Then I myself will admit to you that your own right hand can save you." God knew/knows that we cannot save ourself from anything. It is only when we look to him that we are saved. Does it mean that everything in life will go beautifully - no way - but it does mean that we need to be in our place. We are not God and we should not be questioning God. When I think of my hand trying to save me it is not a pretty sight. But when I truly lay my life and all circumstances in the hands of the God of the universe there is confidence! After I read these verses I noticed outside our front window a small tree filled with black birds. They were flying down onto the freshly fallen snow and picking up some black things on top of the snow. I'm not sure what it was they were eating, but God was providing for their needs. He will do the same for you and for me.

We need to continue to ask God to search our hearts. I know that I can get in the way. In closing today I want to point out what Job said to God. "My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you." You see, we can know about God, or we can know God. This is surrendering all of who we are to him, laying our desires aside and seeking his face. Being attentive to his voice and drawing into a close personal relationship with him. Ask yourself the question - Do I really want to know God deeply and intimately? Or am I afraid to because God will see all of me and I don't really like all of me? Allow God to search your heart - it is then you will find freedom!