Contentmant

I just don't know what God is doing. At all...
God sure is a God of mystery.
He sure doesn't give me more than today to see. I wish he would.
Satan loves to come into my life and confuse me and make me doubt.
He can take a hike............
I love that God has introduced me to a new encouraging non-judgmental friend who understands.
I love that Michigan State beat Michigan today.
Unknown is getting old. God must have a plan because I sure can't figure it out.
I want to contine to be "real".
I face frustrations, fears and doubts.
Sometimes I am so strong in the Lord and in His Spirit I could take on the world.
Other times life brings enough hits that I am just weak.

I am so ready to have a church family, one where we can really love on each other - but God has not brought that about yet. So for now God wants me to love the people where we are at for this season. It is so hard sometimes not to try to rush God. You know what I mean don't you? The other day I actually felt mad at God. I honestly was - that was wrong and I have confessed that to him. I cannot remember the last time I felt that way. What a horrible attack from the enemy. I want no part of that again. God's time is certainly not mine - and where I want to be may not be where he wants me to be. What he wants for me is far better than what I want for myself.

So Jesus, pour your Spirit upon me to walk in the joy and confidence that you have every step of my life in your hands. No matter what has to be stripped away, your love and your grace is sufficient for me.