WONDERING

So I've spent today doing an aweful lot of wondering - ok, some worrying was mixed in there too. All about what the future is to hold for us. As I was again reminded in my scripture reading today of the Israelites grumbling, I felt very convicted of doing the same today. Grumbling inside, picking up some unforgiveness and worrying about what to do next. Makes me think of the song "who am I, that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt; who am I the the one who calms the sea, would calm the storm in me." Seems that whenever I go through these spots in life I am usually convicted of something that God needs to work out in my life. Sometimes I want to ignore what God is trying to show me, but it ends up that I have no choice but to listen to his voice.

Jesus is so loving that he would die for me. He will continue to come after me even when I am being a putz. Thank you Jesus for your kindness. Romans 2 says "your kindness leads me to repentance." I know that he is working on me, being kind to me and bringing me to repentance for ever doubting him. Being in his will is where I want to be; lest I forget that being in my own will would be a mess. The following song is so beautiful and comforting. May it bring peace to our soul; remembering that he is good and he is kind.

Happy 20th today to beautiful daughter Emily. May the Lord pour all over you his blessings and love. May you know deep in your heart his love for you and mine as well. I remember when you were just born your big wide awake eyes. We could see the Spirit of Christ in you right away. Live in his love and power.