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Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Been betrayed? Been deserted?
Do you know what it's like to be betrayed or deserted? A friend, a spouse, a co-worker...betrayal just plain hurts. I was reading in Matthew when Judas had betrayed Jesus and Jesus said to those who came to seize him. "Do you think that I cannot appeal to my Father, and he will at once send me more than twelve legions of angels? But how then should the Scriptures be fulfilled, that it must be so? . . . Day after day I sat in the temple courts teaching, and you did not seize me. But all this has taken place that the Scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. Then all the disciples left him and fled."
It doesn't say that most of his disciples left him/deserted him, but ALL of them. I was thinking about how Jesus must have felt. He knew this was coming for sure but that does not change the fact that he was human, with the same feelings that we have. He served along side these men, these men gave up everything to follow him but when push came to shove, they deserted him - out of their own fear. Jesus had nobody standing beside him. Where did he turn? To his Father!!!! Where do you turn when it seems that there is nobody around you? When you feel deserted or alone. I can only imagine the deep hurt that Jesus felt when all of his disciples deserted him. Kinda makes me think of how he feels when I desert him even now. When I try to live my life my way. When I have days when I'm not seeking his face. Because you see, he wants me - he wants our relationship to be one of sharing together, spending time together and basking in the love that he has for me and that I have for him.
I am so overwhelmed that Jesus would feel hurt, pain, rejection, betrayal and death...etc. ALL FOR ME - ALL FOR YOU. I am so thankful that he rose from the dead defeating Satan and giving me freedom. How can I ever begin to thank you Jesus. When you are feeling alone seek the face of your heavenly Father. He is always there for you. His promise to you is "I will never leave you or forsake you." Hold on to him so tight. He is right there next to you.
It doesn't say that most of his disciples left him/deserted him, but ALL of them. I was thinking about how Jesus must have felt. He knew this was coming for sure but that does not change the fact that he was human, with the same feelings that we have. He served along side these men, these men gave up everything to follow him but when push came to shove, they deserted him - out of their own fear. Jesus had nobody standing beside him. Where did he turn? To his Father!!!! Where do you turn when it seems that there is nobody around you? When you feel deserted or alone. I can only imagine the deep hurt that Jesus felt when all of his disciples deserted him. Kinda makes me think of how he feels when I desert him even now. When I try to live my life my way. When I have days when I'm not seeking his face. Because you see, he wants me - he wants our relationship to be one of sharing together, spending time together and basking in the love that he has for me and that I have for him.
I am so overwhelmed that Jesus would feel hurt, pain, rejection, betrayal and death...etc. ALL FOR ME - ALL FOR YOU. I am so thankful that he rose from the dead defeating Satan and giving me freedom. How can I ever begin to thank you Jesus. When you are feeling alone seek the face of your heavenly Father. He is always there for you. His promise to you is "I will never leave you or forsake you." Hold on to him so tight. He is right there next to you.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Is it I, Lord?
I want you to think for a moment of the times when you doubted God. Doubted that he really had a plan for your life, doubted your beauty in Christ, times when you were just plain doubting. I know I have had my share of those times. I don't like being in those times and I know it's usually the enemy that is trying to knock me down and that my humanness so often gets in the way. All of us have been there at some point.
This moring I was struck by just a few words in Matthew 26. "When it was evening, he reclined at the table with the twelve. And as they were eating he said, 'Truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me.' And they were very sorrowful and began to say to him one after another, 'Is it I, Lord?"
The disciples, even doubting their own hearts. I was thinking about what that must have been like. If I had been one of the twelve wouldn't you think that I would known my own heart? Wouldn't you think that I would know that I would never betray Jesus? Yet they all doubted themselves, and had to ask Jesus if it was them. I think that they all knew their own weaknesses. Oh they wanted to know that it was not them but knew deep inside that in a moment they could fail. I was wondering what that might have felt like for Jesus but I don't think he was too phased by their questioning. You see, Jesus loves us no matter how much we doubt him. He's not there to condemn us or judge us but just to love us. It's hard to fathom this kind of love sometimes.
My husband tells me that I am beautiful every day. Us women tend to need reminding of that frequently as we so frequently complain about something about ourselves. I just had the thought of Jesus sitting in a room full of women, all of whom truly love him, and he says "one of you will doubt your beauty" - I don't think any of them would question whether it was them.
So today, I am thankful that I am again reminded that I am loved despite my doubts. I can live free because of what Jesus did for me on the cross. I can live confident in his forgiveness.
This moring I was struck by just a few words in Matthew 26. "When it was evening, he reclined at the table with the twelve. And as they were eating he said, 'Truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me.' And they were very sorrowful and began to say to him one after another, 'Is it I, Lord?"
The disciples, even doubting their own hearts. I was thinking about what that must have been like. If I had been one of the twelve wouldn't you think that I would known my own heart? Wouldn't you think that I would know that I would never betray Jesus? Yet they all doubted themselves, and had to ask Jesus if it was them. I think that they all knew their own weaknesses. Oh they wanted to know that it was not them but knew deep inside that in a moment they could fail. I was wondering what that might have felt like for Jesus but I don't think he was too phased by their questioning. You see, Jesus loves us no matter how much we doubt him. He's not there to condemn us or judge us but just to love us. It's hard to fathom this kind of love sometimes.
My husband tells me that I am beautiful every day. Us women tend to need reminding of that frequently as we so frequently complain about something about ourselves. I just had the thought of Jesus sitting in a room full of women, all of whom truly love him, and he says "one of you will doubt your beauty" - I don't think any of them would question whether it was them.
So today, I am thankful that I am again reminded that I am loved despite my doubts. I can live free because of what Jesus did for me on the cross. I can live confident in his forgiveness.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Water mess
"Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you? And the King will answer them, 'Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'" Matthew 25
As I let these words sink in to me this morning it is a reminder to me of the times when I find myself complaining. Whatever it is that causes complaining is usually just my selfishness getting in the way. Thinking about Jesus words above brings a new light on complaining. You see everything in life everything that we do should be for Him. Everything. And if everything in our life is for Him, that would mean that even our complaining is directed at Him. According to the words above whenever we are helping each other we are helping Jesus. Oh, I have always know this, always taught it to my children - but take it even further. When we complain aren't we really telling God that he messed up?
This morning I woke up at 7:30 when my husband came in the bedroom and said that he was up in the middle of the night with the shop vac in the basement because some valve on the back of a toilet didn't shut down and water ran over the top all night. What a mess. As he came in to tell me he began to change and get ready to go to a time of prayer with some men. He had been invited by a fellow pastor. He was tired and probably felt like just going back to bed. He said, "Satan does not want me to go this morning. I AM GOING!" I am thinking his time of prayer is going to be amazing.
I hope this doesn't sound confusing or scattered. Sometimes scripture teaches me something that others may not track with, but I think that scripture teaches us different things and in different ways. Doing for the least of these vs. complaining. Some may track with me, some may not, but non the less, that is what God was teaching me through his word today.
May all I do today, talking with the insurance company...etc. bring honor to my heavenly Father.
As I let these words sink in to me this morning it is a reminder to me of the times when I find myself complaining. Whatever it is that causes complaining is usually just my selfishness getting in the way. Thinking about Jesus words above brings a new light on complaining. You see everything in life everything that we do should be for Him. Everything. And if everything in our life is for Him, that would mean that even our complaining is directed at Him. According to the words above whenever we are helping each other we are helping Jesus. Oh, I have always know this, always taught it to my children - but take it even further. When we complain aren't we really telling God that he messed up?
This morning I woke up at 7:30 when my husband came in the bedroom and said that he was up in the middle of the night with the shop vac in the basement because some valve on the back of a toilet didn't shut down and water ran over the top all night. What a mess. As he came in to tell me he began to change and get ready to go to a time of prayer with some men. He had been invited by a fellow pastor. He was tired and probably felt like just going back to bed. He said, "Satan does not want me to go this morning. I AM GOING!" I am thinking his time of prayer is going to be amazing.
I hope this doesn't sound confusing or scattered. Sometimes scripture teaches me something that others may not track with, but I think that scripture teaches us different things and in different ways. Doing for the least of these vs. complaining. Some may track with me, some may not, but non the less, that is what God was teaching me through his word today.
May all I do today, talking with the insurance company...etc. bring honor to my heavenly Father.
Friday, January 7, 2011
I Wonder
Some of you know that my family girl movie is "You've Got Mail." My girls and I can run the lines and love to watch it when we are together. There is something about it that is restful. I was watching it the other day while getting other things done when Kathleen Kelly (played by Meg Ryan) was typing her email - the words played out in my mind as I thought about my life.
Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead
a small life. Well, not small, but
circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder,
do I do it because I like it, or because
I haven't been brave?
I could hear myself saying them - kinda sad - kinda not - kinda just not sure but none-the-less they resinated in me. I am at a new phase in my life which leaves me wondering. Looking back on the years that I have invested in my family, running to soccer games, musicals, horse lessons, voice and piano...etc. I now wonder what God wants of me in this new phase which came upon me so quickly. I have no regrets of the time I have invested in my family but now feel much like Kathleen Kelly in the movie. So I will end with the next line in the movie.
I don't really want an answer. I just
want to send this cosmic question out
into the void. So goodnight, dear void.
Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead
a small life. Well, not small, but
circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder,
do I do it because I like it, or because
I haven't been brave?
I could hear myself saying them - kinda sad - kinda not - kinda just not sure but none-the-less they resinated in me. I am at a new phase in my life which leaves me wondering. Looking back on the years that I have invested in my family, running to soccer games, musicals, horse lessons, voice and piano...etc. I now wonder what God wants of me in this new phase which came upon me so quickly. I have no regrets of the time I have invested in my family but now feel much like Kathleen Kelly in the movie. So I will end with the next line in the movie.
I don't really want an answer. I just
want to send this cosmic question out
into the void. So goodnight, dear void.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
A Fresh Dusting
Today brings a fresh dusting of snow on the ground. I must admit that when I woke up and saw it I was a bit bummed. I was really liking the no snow thing, but it is January in Ohio.
I was telling my husband this morning that I want more of God. I want to be even closer to him than I am right now. I want my prayer time to be more deep, more intimate. Like the fresh dusting of snow on the ground I want a fresh dusting of his presence in my life. He wants to give me a fresh dusting of him. Where am I in this? Well, I can pull back or I can press in. For me it starts with a desire for more of him. He is always there, beckoning us to come, but will we? What is holding you back from pressing in deeper with Christ? Is it your sin? Cause that doesn't matter to him. Is it that you don't know how? Cause he just wants you to keep trying. What is keeping you from stopping everything else to spend time with him and being in his word. Too busy? Look at Jesus ministry, he was sure busy. Crowds of people followed him, everywhere he went there were demands to heal and then there were the people who were always questioning him. Yet what do we see him doing in the midst of it all? Yup, getting away for his alone time with his Father, to get filled up by him, to bring his requests and share life with him.
I think so many find it hard to spend time with God. Oh we want to but we just don't know how. I would encourage you to find a good online bible read through and start today. Allow God to speak to you through his word. He will!!! Remember this "Draw near to me and I will draw near to you." This is his promise.
I was telling my husband this morning that I want more of God. I want to be even closer to him than I am right now. I want my prayer time to be more deep, more intimate. Like the fresh dusting of snow on the ground I want a fresh dusting of his presence in my life. He wants to give me a fresh dusting of him. Where am I in this? Well, I can pull back or I can press in. For me it starts with a desire for more of him. He is always there, beckoning us to come, but will we? What is holding you back from pressing in deeper with Christ? Is it your sin? Cause that doesn't matter to him. Is it that you don't know how? Cause he just wants you to keep trying. What is keeping you from stopping everything else to spend time with him and being in his word. Too busy? Look at Jesus ministry, he was sure busy. Crowds of people followed him, everywhere he went there were demands to heal and then there were the people who were always questioning him. Yet what do we see him doing in the midst of it all? Yup, getting away for his alone time with his Father, to get filled up by him, to bring his requests and share life with him.
I think so many find it hard to spend time with God. Oh we want to but we just don't know how. I would encourage you to find a good online bible read through and start today. Allow God to speak to you through his word. He will!!! Remember this "Draw near to me and I will draw near to you." This is his promise.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Preparations and Miracles
Most people who are blogging today (Chrismas Eve) are writing about Christmas. Writing about the miracle of Jesus coming into the world - to save us - to give us life and salvation - born in a lowly stable - surrounded by the shepherds. So amazing - so wonderful!!! Today brings final preparations for my family to arrive. Cookies being made, house dusted, beds made and preparations for a toddler and a baby to stay. I spend alot of time making my home warm and comfortable. As I write this all out I can't help but think and wonder what kind of preperations we take in our lives to be close to Jesus. To strengthen our relationship with him. I know for me I love my morning time in the word but I must confess that I too, like you, have my days where I get going and forget, or just purposely lay it aside until "later" only to find at the end of the day that it never happened. I would prefer never to fail in this area but I don't live in failure, because Jesus wouldn't want me to live in failure but in his grace, his forgiveness.
The miracle of Christmas is in my life. The miracle of a virgin birth. Wow! I want you to take a moment to think about something. Mary was conceived through the Holy Spirit. Now stop and think for a moment the power in this conception. Seriously, conceived through the Holy Spirit. We cannot even comprehend this kind of power. Now if you are a believer, this power, this Holy Spirit is alive in you. Right now, every moment, you have the power of the Holy Spirit within you. Can't forgive someone who has hurt you? Remember that you have the power within you. Don't try to tap into yourself but tap into the Spirit. Pray, seek Christ to be revealed in you and you will be able to do more than you could ever ask or imagine.
The miracle of Christmas is in my life. The miracle of a virgin birth. Wow! I want you to take a moment to think about something. Mary was conceived through the Holy Spirit. Now stop and think for a moment the power in this conception. Seriously, conceived through the Holy Spirit. We cannot even comprehend this kind of power. Now if you are a believer, this power, this Holy Spirit is alive in you. Right now, every moment, you have the power of the Holy Spirit within you. Can't forgive someone who has hurt you? Remember that you have the power within you. Don't try to tap into yourself but tap into the Spirit. Pray, seek Christ to be revealed in you and you will be able to do more than you could ever ask or imagine.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
It's worth it
Today brings a lightness of heart for me. No matter what trials in life you face, trust in Him, seek Him - don't stop. When you fall down, when you doubt, when your scared, keep seeking him - don't stop.
When the three disciples went with Jesus up a high mountain and Jesus was transfigured before them, "his face shone like the sun and his clothes became white as light" God the father spoke from a cloud and said "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him. When the disciples heard this they fell on their faces and were terrified. But Jesus came and touched them saying. 'Rise, and have no fear.'" Isn't Jesus amazing!!! How often don't we really listen to Jesus. We face things that are so uncertain, sometimes even fearful, we face hurts and what do we do? Don't we way too often become afraid? Now think for a moment about the underlined words above. Those words are from the God of the Universe, the creator of this world, our creator. Look outside at everything you see, the creator of all of that told us to listen to Jesus. Then Jesus next words to us are "HAVE NO FEAR." I believe that the peace that transends all understanding comes when we truly believe and listen to Jesus words.
There is a young woman in my life, not my daughter by blood, that has become a special friend. God has broken down any age barriers and we can share life and be completely "real" with each other. If I had not moved to Ohio I would never have met her and would have missed out on a special friendship. We were talking the other day about how we so often try to plan our life out ourself. We know it is completely rediculous but we do it anyway. Can you relate? We have such a merciful and patient God. He is always drawing us back, beckoning us to him, to just trust him, to believe him, that he has a plan. I told my friend that my life, in no aspect, has any of it ever turned out the way I thought it would, or the way I planned. It is through what I do not see that God moves in miraculous ways. I love that!!! Is it always easy? no way. Is it worth it - you bet.
When the three disciples went with Jesus up a high mountain and Jesus was transfigured before them, "his face shone like the sun and his clothes became white as light" God the father spoke from a cloud and said "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him. When the disciples heard this they fell on their faces and were terrified. But Jesus came and touched them saying. 'Rise, and have no fear.'" Isn't Jesus amazing!!! How often don't we really listen to Jesus. We face things that are so uncertain, sometimes even fearful, we face hurts and what do we do? Don't we way too often become afraid? Now think for a moment about the underlined words above. Those words are from the God of the Universe, the creator of this world, our creator. Look outside at everything you see, the creator of all of that told us to listen to Jesus. Then Jesus next words to us are "HAVE NO FEAR." I believe that the peace that transends all understanding comes when we truly believe and listen to Jesus words.
There is a young woman in my life, not my daughter by blood, that has become a special friend. God has broken down any age barriers and we can share life and be completely "real" with each other. If I had not moved to Ohio I would never have met her and would have missed out on a special friendship. We were talking the other day about how we so often try to plan our life out ourself. We know it is completely rediculous but we do it anyway. Can you relate? We have such a merciful and patient God. He is always drawing us back, beckoning us to him, to just trust him, to believe him, that he has a plan. I told my friend that my life, in no aspect, has any of it ever turned out the way I thought it would, or the way I planned. It is through what I do not see that God moves in miraculous ways. I love that!!! Is it always easy? no way. Is it worth it - you bet.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
PRAYERS NEEDED
Yesterday I was reading an article in the Columbus news online about a home being built in the Columbus area for girls who have been rescued from sex trafficking and how Ohio has finally become one of 42 states to make sex trafficking a felony. Seriously, I cannot understand how it hasn't been a felony before. My heart began to break even more as I read the article. This is one of the most haneous acts of violence.
Recently God has opened up the opportunity for me to become a mentor at The Daughter Project. http://thedaughterproject.org/ Please won't you consider being a prayer partner for me and donating online to help these girls in their recovery. You see, so many people out there do not know the love of Jesus. So many peole are hurting and broken. I believe that all of us fit in to those categories, some have just faced harder life situations. But the love of Jesus is stronger than anything, stronger even than death. Death could not even hold him down. This is who is on our side, this is who loves us and this is who came to redeem and set us free from the bondages that Satan has put people under. "He came that we would have life, and have it abundantly."
I know that it will be tough to be a mentor in this area. I know that I will/do have times when I feel inadequate, weak and wonder if I will be able to really do this. God will be there with me. I know that I will need your prayers to see me through. To give me the words of Christ to speak and for peace in my heart as I minister in tough situations.
As I closed my eyes to listen to this song I could not help but think about my own daughters. I think about how much they are loved, by me as a mom and by the people in their life. That is so precious to me, they are so precious to me. Then I thought about what it would be like to be a young girl who has be "taken" and forced into sex trafficking. I think about these young girls sitting in a corner in a little room, curled up in a corner, scared and crying, feeling like nobody loves her and even not even knowing about love at all. Then I hear the end of this song when the man hears a voice deep inside speaking love into him. That is what I pray for these girls. That they would hear God speak to them with a love they have never known. PLEASE PRAY FOR THEM!
Recently God has opened up the opportunity for me to become a mentor at The Daughter Project. http://thedaughterproject.org/ Please won't you consider being a prayer partner for me and donating online to help these girls in their recovery. You see, so many people out there do not know the love of Jesus. So many peole are hurting and broken. I believe that all of us fit in to those categories, some have just faced harder life situations. But the love of Jesus is stronger than anything, stronger even than death. Death could not even hold him down. This is who is on our side, this is who loves us and this is who came to redeem and set us free from the bondages that Satan has put people under. "He came that we would have life, and have it abundantly."
I know that it will be tough to be a mentor in this area. I know that I will/do have times when I feel inadequate, weak and wonder if I will be able to really do this. God will be there with me. I know that I will need your prayers to see me through. To give me the words of Christ to speak and for peace in my heart as I minister in tough situations.
As I closed my eyes to listen to this song I could not help but think about my own daughters. I think about how much they are loved, by me as a mom and by the people in their life. That is so precious to me, they are so precious to me. Then I thought about what it would be like to be a young girl who has be "taken" and forced into sex trafficking. I think about these young girls sitting in a corner in a little room, curled up in a corner, scared and crying, feeling like nobody loves her and even not even knowing about love at all. Then I hear the end of this song when the man hears a voice deep inside speaking love into him. That is what I pray for these girls. That they would hear God speak to them with a love they have never known. PLEASE PRAY FOR THEM!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Is your heart in need of work?
Seems that my heart is always in need of some work. From envy to anger to selfishness to doubt to ...etc. I don't know about you but when I read the following words from Jesus I have to take a good look at myself. "But what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this defiles a person." Matt. 16:18 Jesus spoke these words to his disciples who still didn't get it. Sometimes that makes me feel a little better when I read how Jesus was often helping his disciples to 'get it.' I am in need of that regularly. Scripture is great at helping me to be more confused, more understanding, more convicted and more filled with grace. I love all of that and need it all in my faith walk.
When I speak words of grumbling or complaining, when I speak words of doubting what God is doing in my life that really shows where my heart is. But when I speak words of being grateful, despite what I see around me - when I speak words of God's faithfulness, despite the circumstances - when I can bring glory and honor to God NO MATTER WHAT with my words - then my heart will be changed. Lord change my heart, soften my heart and fill me anew with your Holy Spirit.
As I look out the window and see the bright winter sun shining and the gentle glimmering of the snow flurries I am reminded of the majesty of God, the power of God. That he would create such beauty for my eyes to behold is truly an amazing gift that we so often take for granted. May we all this day give priase and glory and honor to God despite what our eyes see around us. I do not want to be like Peter when Jesus spoke to him and said "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
Our God - yes he is amazing - he is all knowing - all powerful - all loving - those are truths. Hold onto them today.
When I speak words of grumbling or complaining, when I speak words of doubting what God is doing in my life that really shows where my heart is. But when I speak words of being grateful, despite what I see around me - when I speak words of God's faithfulness, despite the circumstances - when I can bring glory and honor to God NO MATTER WHAT with my words - then my heart will be changed. Lord change my heart, soften my heart and fill me anew with your Holy Spirit.
As I look out the window and see the bright winter sun shining and the gentle glimmering of the snow flurries I am reminded of the majesty of God, the power of God. That he would create such beauty for my eyes to behold is truly an amazing gift that we so often take for granted. May we all this day give priase and glory and honor to God despite what our eyes see around us. I do not want to be like Peter when Jesus spoke to him and said "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
Our God - yes he is amazing - he is all knowing - all powerful - all loving - those are truths. Hold onto them today.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Our understanding - only that
I was blogging when I accidently hit something on the keyboard which deleted the entire blog. Maybe I just wasn't suppose to blog that so I will attempt another try. As you read the following words I want you to hear them as words spoken directly into your life and circumstance. The underlined words I have heard spoken to me a number of times this past week. I think the Lord is trying to tell me something.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones."
You see, my understanding is only that. Mine. Do I know what tomorrrow holds? No - so why do I even look to my own understanding?! This God who loves me knows that my wisdom is only fleeting but when I fear him (honor him) and lean on him he will bring refreshment to me. None of us do this like we should, we get caught up in our own plans and forget that this God of the universe has our life all in order already. I think we all know what our body feels like when we become anxious about something. We can't sleep, we become fearful, we get snappy with others...etc. This is all in attempt to use our own wisdom to figure things out. How sad that we miss out on the fresh healing refreshment that Christ offers to us.
"Come, you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." If you haven't been there in a while (like me) and your longing for the refreshing that Christ has for you just stop and get quiet. Close your eyes and ask him to refresh you. These are his promises to us and his promises never fail. Let's hold on to the truth.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones."
You see, my understanding is only that. Mine. Do I know what tomorrrow holds? No - so why do I even look to my own understanding?! This God who loves me knows that my wisdom is only fleeting but when I fear him (honor him) and lean on him he will bring refreshment to me. None of us do this like we should, we get caught up in our own plans and forget that this God of the universe has our life all in order already. I think we all know what our body feels like when we become anxious about something. We can't sleep, we become fearful, we get snappy with others...etc. This is all in attempt to use our own wisdom to figure things out. How sad that we miss out on the fresh healing refreshment that Christ offers to us.
"Come, you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." If you haven't been there in a while (like me) and your longing for the refreshing that Christ has for you just stop and get quiet. Close your eyes and ask him to refresh you. These are his promises to us and his promises never fail. Let's hold on to the truth.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Don't Stop
Reading Jesus healings is always so cool to me. He healed the sick so simply and without trying to get attention. Just with love and compassion. I read again the story of when he sent the demons into the pigs and they ran into the waters and drowned. Hear this "The herdsmen fled, and going into the city they told everything, especially what had happened to the demon-possessed men. And behold, all the city came out to meet Jesus, and when they saw him, they begged him to leave their region." Matthew 8
Why would any of us ever think that we will be accepted by following Jesus? Some people will be drawn to Christ in us, others will want us to just go away. The teachings of Jesus were and are hard for people. In a nation where Christianity is becoming less and less it is important that we seek the face of God. It is important that we ask ourselves 'Have I diminished Jesus in my life? Have I forgotten what the bible says? Have I listened to this world over what Jesus says?'
Jesus did incredible miracles - Jesus death and resurrection are true - His promises for us are true - But I think how sad he must be when he sees his people turning away and following what the world has to offer. He is longing for you - He is longing for you to surrender the things of this world and to come to him in complete surrender. The beauty that he has for you is more than you could even begin to imagine. Let his miracles speak truth into your life. The truth of his power - that power that lives alive in you. His grace is enough for you. Nothing can separate you from his love - nothing!
Are you hoping for a miracle in your life? Me too! Keep praying it, never stop.
Why would any of us ever think that we will be accepted by following Jesus? Some people will be drawn to Christ in us, others will want us to just go away. The teachings of Jesus were and are hard for people. In a nation where Christianity is becoming less and less it is important that we seek the face of God. It is important that we ask ourselves 'Have I diminished Jesus in my life? Have I forgotten what the bible says? Have I listened to this world over what Jesus says?'
Jesus did incredible miracles - Jesus death and resurrection are true - His promises for us are true - But I think how sad he must be when he sees his people turning away and following what the world has to offer. He is longing for you - He is longing for you to surrender the things of this world and to come to him in complete surrender. The beauty that he has for you is more than you could even begin to imagine. Let his miracles speak truth into your life. The truth of his power - that power that lives alive in you. His grace is enough for you. Nothing can separate you from his love - nothing!
Are you hoping for a miracle in your life? Me too! Keep praying it, never stop.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
THE HAIR BRUSH
Experiencing and hearing the voice of God is something that I long for more of. Some days more than others. This morning I am sitting on my bed doing some stuff on in the internet only to come across the following clip. I must say I did not know what to expect as I saw the title, but it made me curious. Beth Moore is my favorite women's bible teacher. She is truly filled with the Spirit of Christ and teaches directly from the word of God. Tears and laughter filled my eyes as I listened to this story and the passion in her heart. I pray that we all know that God does and wants to speak to us - we just have to listen.
May that be our prayer today - Father God, I ask that we hear your voice today. That you would speak to each of us however you so desire and that we are open and receptive to distinguish it. That your Spirit would so resinate in our/my heart(s) that we are so moved into action, even when it doesn't make sense. Fill us Father God with your overflowing love, your power so we hear you so clearly.
May that be our prayer today - Father God, I ask that we hear your voice today. That you would speak to each of us however you so desire and that we are open and receptive to distinguish it. That your Spirit would so resinate in our/my heart(s) that we are so moved into action, even when it doesn't make sense. Fill us Father God with your overflowing love, your power so we hear you so clearly.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Little bundle to high school
I don't know if I will be able to capture my thoughts and life in the past while. I feel so out of the blogging mode and I want to get back in it. My life has been a whirlwind of activity and responsibilities that blogging has ended up to be at the bottom of my to do list. Today brought some quiet and completion of tasks that have been in the works for a while so I have some time now to write.
Let me start by saying that I am super happy that I have a grandaughter. Emily Jane was born last Friday and she is an absolutely beautiful little girl. Holding that little pink bundle felt so normal to me. That was my life - pink bundles. Now I await another beautiful blue bundle to arrive in March.
This morning I witnessed something so amazing. I was at my daughter's high school for the weekly chapel. Her Christian high school has chapel once a week for 45 minutes. Angela usually talks about how awesome chapel is but today I was there, along with another mom, to present and promote information about the school Spring mission trip to Jamaica. After out brief presentation the guest pastor, an area youth pastor, shared a word with the students about dying to ourself. It was a powerful word, spoken directly from scripture, and spoken directly to students. At the end I watched as he asked students who needed prayer and direction in this area of their life to come up for prayer, to be prayed with by staff. There was silence in the gym except for the pianist and violinist playing in the backgound, as students walked up for prayer. It was such a powerful thing to see. You see, the 45 min. was already past but it mattered not. Transformation in the life of even 1 student was worth being late to class. As he began to close the time he asked the principle to come to the middle of the gym, then told all the students to get down out of their seats and lay hands on him for prayer. He told them that their principle may sometimes feel like they don't really notice him...etc. so let's pray for him. He left prayer open and tears were pouring down my cheeks as I heard student after student speaking a prayer for him. It was such a powerful moment and my heart lept for joy that my daughter is a part of this school.
Then I come home and remembered that we have a car insurance bill due and about an hour ago my washing machine decided to go on the fritz. I don't usually understand God's plan. Guess I'm not suppose to. I wish I could understand, but living by faith is not understanding his plan, but trusting that he has one.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
No distance between us
We were having family devotions the other day after dinner. As Tim was reading, some words resinated inside of me. I wanted him to read it again - to highlight the words. They were words that were so beautiful to me - a picture so beautiful. I have underlined the one particular sentence that I fell in love with.
"Do not look to your own thoughts, but walk in the Spirit; so will you accomplish the work the Spirit desires for you. ... Therefore be diligent. Follow Me so closely that there will be no distance between us. Listen carefully to My voice so you do not go your own way. Set your heart to follow to the end, for at the end there awaits an exceeding weight of glory for those who endure."
As I heard these words I had such a longing for this every day. I know those times when I have been so close to the Spirit. It is I who get in the way so many times when I try to accomplish my work instead of His work in my life. Galatians 5:25 "Since we live by the Spririt, let us keep in step with the Spirit." To keep in step means that we are following. Have you ever tried to keep in step with someone you are walking with? Tim and I try that sometimes but it can be hard. His legs are longer than mine and he has a differerent stride than me but for me to keep in step with him I have to stay focused and pay attention to each step he takes. Many times along the way I will mess up the step but I just have to get back in the rhythm again. That's a beautiful picture of following the Spirit of Christ. When we allow him to lead us sometimes we will get off step, our attentions wander in other directions, we get sidetracked. But he is still there with us, gently guiding us back to him. I want to be so close to him that there is no space between us. What peace that will bring to my soul, what peace it does bring to my soul when I am walking in step with him.
...and after alot of practice walking in step with the Spirit, I have those times when I find myself not having to work so hard to pay attention to where my feet are walking because through his power I am confident that where he leads will be the best and most beautiful for me.
Dear Jesus, I thank you so much this day for sending your Spirit to live within me. It is so amazing to me that you love me so much that you would indwell inside of me. Help me to live my life empowered to live and walk in step with you. Help me to get out of the way. Speak to me this day and may I walk refreshed and filled up in you.
"Do not look to your own thoughts, but walk in the Spirit; so will you accomplish the work the Spirit desires for you. ... Therefore be diligent. Follow Me so closely that there will be no distance between us. Listen carefully to My voice so you do not go your own way. Set your heart to follow to the end, for at the end there awaits an exceeding weight of glory for those who endure."
As I heard these words I had such a longing for this every day. I know those times when I have been so close to the Spirit. It is I who get in the way so many times when I try to accomplish my work instead of His work in my life. Galatians 5:25 "Since we live by the Spririt, let us keep in step with the Spirit." To keep in step means that we are following. Have you ever tried to keep in step with someone you are walking with? Tim and I try that sometimes but it can be hard. His legs are longer than mine and he has a differerent stride than me but for me to keep in step with him I have to stay focused and pay attention to each step he takes. Many times along the way I will mess up the step but I just have to get back in the rhythm again. That's a beautiful picture of following the Spirit of Christ. When we allow him to lead us sometimes we will get off step, our attentions wander in other directions, we get sidetracked. But he is still there with us, gently guiding us back to him. I want to be so close to him that there is no space between us. What peace that will bring to my soul, what peace it does bring to my soul when I am walking in step with him.
...and after alot of practice walking in step with the Spirit, I have those times when I find myself not having to work so hard to pay attention to where my feet are walking because through his power I am confident that where he leads will be the best and most beautiful for me.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Freedom
I was challenged this morning about obedience to God. As I read the story of Abraham sacrificing his son Isaac - which I have read many times - I was struck by Abraham's response to God. God tells him to "take your son, ... and offer him there as a burnt offering..." Now listen to how Abraham responds. "So Abraham rose early in the morning, saddled his donkey,...and his son Isaac. And he cut the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place of which God had told him." Do you catch what I did? Abraham had no hesitation in obeying God. No questions. He just did it. We know that God spared Isaac's life but what a test of Abraham's faith. How would I pass such a test? That one - I would fail. I don't like that I'm not there yet. Yet even as I think about my life I continue to fail the tests in my faith. But you know? Jesus was the sacrifice that paid for all of my failures. I can live in the grace that washes over me. I don't have to be bound by my failures but I can live in the freedom that Christ has brought into my life. Galatians 5:1 "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."
Halleluiah! Praise Jesus!
Halleluiah! Praise Jesus!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Mobile Meals and my Mom
This morning I had my Mobile Meals delivery. I do this twice a month (Tim does help me, he's my great driver) It has been a blessing to help deliver meals to those in need. We arrived today at our first drop off to which I tell Tim - "You are going to that door this time, I am not taking the chance of finding a man without pants again." Yup, that happened last time! As we continued our other 8 deliveries I heard a recurring theme from the people. "I hope your getting home soon before this big storm comes." So cute! I felt like they were all my mother. Oh, ya, I'm one of those. :)
One of our last clients we deliver to is a couple. She sees the car coming up the driveway to her door and is always there right away. She was so concerned about us getting home today before the storm hit. As I walked to the car she said "God bless you." I want to get to know some of the people more - sometimes I just want to go in their little apartment and visit with them but I have to finish the deliveries within a certain time.
I want to hear some amazing wisdom from them. I want to learn from them and hear their life stories. I bet they have some amazing ones. I know I do and I'm only 4_(not telling). haha Our daugher Angela had to interview someone for her Spanish 4 class so she called her grandpa. I didn't realize she was doing this until we got home from our small group. I walked in the door and she just said "grandpa is amazing. I called him to ask him some questions for Spanish and I learned things about grandpa that I never knew." She just smiled and I saw that it was a great bonding moment for her, even though it was over the phone.
James 1:27 "Religion that is pure and undefiled before God the Father is this; to visit orphans and widows in their affliction; and to keep oneself unstained from the world."
I think about some of the widows whom we deliver meals to. I'll just bet that some of them lost their husbands after being married for 50-60 years. Seriously, can you imagine the loneliness they must feel!!! And on top of it they may not even have any children around to visit with them or take them anywhere. Hmmmm - may we all consider the above bible verse, pray about it and see what God opens up for each of us to do. THEN JUST DO IT! May Christ, our amazing Savior and King always receive all the glory and praise and honor.
Keep us humble Lord. Amen!
This is a picture of my visit with my mom in June. She lives in an assisted living facility far from me so I was thankful I was able to see her. My sister lives by her and takes amazing care of our mother. I wish I lived close enough to lend a hand. My mom has lost alot of her memory, mostly short term. She didn't recognize me when I got there, told me "oh my, you look so different." But the next day when I went back in the morning she told me "your husband is handsome." So cute. We shared afternoon coffee together, something she has always loved.
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| Me and my Mom |
Friday, October 22, 2010
NO MORE OF THAT!
God is always doing his work in me. Always!! When I get down and filled with wondering sometimes I can forget to really reach out to God. Sometimes I can get caught up in myself and fail to get down and real before God. I mean really real before him. Maybe it's because I don't want to see my own failures and my own mistakes but it is God who knows me inside and out. He never even thought about leaving me in my own messes. You love me Jesus, and walked right into my sin and washed my feet. You, a King would wash my feet. I cannot begin to say how thankful I am for Jesus love for me. I cannot even begin to imagine the love that Jesus has for me.
This morning God spoke to me through his word. He spoke to me and reminded me to rejoice in the Lord, and then said it again. "Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice." I know why God said it twice - because I need to hear it twice. Circumstances will always be there and I can get caught up in trying to work things out my way but that never gets us very far does it? NO MORE OF THAT!
Nehemiah 8:10
"Then he said to them, “Go your way. Eat the fat and drink sweet wine and send portions to anyone who has nothing ready, for this day is holy to our Lord. And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
We cannot have the joy of the Lord without his strength and we cannot have the strength of the Lord without his joy. Seek his face and he will surely fill you up with his joy and his strength.
John 15:11 "These things I have spoken unto you, that my joy may remain in you, and that your joy might be full."
What a thought - that our joy might be full. Imagine being just full of the joy of the Lord! That is what I want today...and tomorrow...and the next...to be full of the joy of the Lord.
This morning God spoke to me through his word. He spoke to me and reminded me to rejoice in the Lord, and then said it again. "Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice." I know why God said it twice - because I need to hear it twice. Circumstances will always be there and I can get caught up in trying to work things out my way but that never gets us very far does it? NO MORE OF THAT!
Nehemiah 8:10
"Then he said to them, “Go your way. Eat the fat and drink sweet wine and send portions to anyone who has nothing ready, for this day is holy to our Lord. And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
We cannot have the joy of the Lord without his strength and we cannot have the strength of the Lord without his joy. Seek his face and he will surely fill you up with his joy and his strength.
John 15:11 "These things I have spoken unto you, that my joy may remain in you, and that your joy might be full."
What a thought - that our joy might be full. Imagine being just full of the joy of the Lord! That is what I want today...and tomorrow...and the next...to be full of the joy of the Lord.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
day after day after day
"Where then are the gods you made for yourselves? Let them come if they can save you when you are in trouble. For you have as many gods as you have towns, O Judah. ... Does a maiden forget her jewelry or a bride her wedding ornaments? Yet my people have forgotten me, days without number." Jeremiah 2
I thought about these words in my own life this morning. As I sit in my living room this Saturday morning, enjoying my coffee and quiet time with God and in the Word I have to take a look into my own life and wonder what gods I have made for myself. Certainly I can look back in my life and think of many things that were way too important. What is it for you?
It might boil down to those times when you are in trouble. Is it only then that you reach out to God? Do you forget about God during the good times and profitable times in life? I love how God points out about a woman not forgetting her ornaments on her wedding day. So true - but don't you hear the sadness as he writes the last line? It's enough that the people have forgotten him, but "days without number." Not just at certain times but day after day after day after day. I imagine God's longing for us. I imagine his love for us - I imagine how we daily ignore him. We spend our day without him - oh he is there - but as the above passage says - we forget him.
One of my friends posted this video recently and I want to share it today. You can watch as much of it as you like but it surely inspired me. This little girl must be about 5 and listen how she is already interceding in prayer - spending time with Jesus. Obviously her parents have trained her early and I think it so precious and beautiful. Faith like a child - she prays believing. How would you like her to pray for you? Amen!!! And I love her mom in the background!!!
If you have gone way too long forgetting about Jesus just stop - get quiet - open up your bible - read - pray - ask him to speak to you - Malachi 3:7 says "Return to me and I will return to you" says the Lord Almighty" You are loved and longed for by the Almighty God. It can't get any better than that.
I thought about these words in my own life this morning. As I sit in my living room this Saturday morning, enjoying my coffee and quiet time with God and in the Word I have to take a look into my own life and wonder what gods I have made for myself. Certainly I can look back in my life and think of many things that were way too important. What is it for you?
It might boil down to those times when you are in trouble. Is it only then that you reach out to God? Do you forget about God during the good times and profitable times in life? I love how God points out about a woman not forgetting her ornaments on her wedding day. So true - but don't you hear the sadness as he writes the last line? It's enough that the people have forgotten him, but "days without number." Not just at certain times but day after day after day after day. I imagine God's longing for us. I imagine his love for us - I imagine how we daily ignore him. We spend our day without him - oh he is there - but as the above passage says - we forget him.
One of my friends posted this video recently and I want to share it today. You can watch as much of it as you like but it surely inspired me. This little girl must be about 5 and listen how she is already interceding in prayer - spending time with Jesus. Obviously her parents have trained her early and I think it so precious and beautiful. Faith like a child - she prays believing. How would you like her to pray for you? Amen!!! And I love her mom in the background!!!
If you have gone way too long forgetting about Jesus just stop - get quiet - open up your bible - read - pray - ask him to speak to you - Malachi 3:7 says "Return to me and I will return to you" says the Lord Almighty" You are loved and longed for by the Almighty God. It can't get any better than that.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Conference
We just returned from a 3 day pastors and wives conference. I always come home tired and ready for my own bed. It's good, don't get me wrong but we are kept busy. One session, the next bible study, some free time mixed in one of the days...and lots of talking and sharing with other pastors and their wives. We share our ups and downs, where we live, where we have lived before - just life. Many are facing some tough challenges and in need of encouragement, some are in good ministries where they have been for many years, but wherever we all are we come together to listen and encourage, knowing that encouragement and listening to each other is what many of us need. So it was good, I am glad to be home and look forward to seeing what God is going to next in my life.
You know, we all have a story. I have many stories, stories of God's hand in so many aspects of my life and stories of transformation. These past few days I heard many stories. Some of hurt, some of frustration, some of power and the aww of God. And encouragement to continue bringing the power and the Spirit of Christ back home.
October is pastor appreciation month. If you want to understand your pastor and his family I would encourage you to do some reading online.
Hebrews 13:17 says "Obey your leaders and submit to their authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you."
You know, we all have a story. I have many stories, stories of God's hand in so many aspects of my life and stories of transformation. These past few days I heard many stories. Some of hurt, some of frustration, some of power and the aww of God. And encouragement to continue bringing the power and the Spirit of Christ back home.
October is pastor appreciation month. If you want to understand your pastor and his family I would encourage you to do some reading online.
Hebrews 13:17 says "Obey your leaders and submit to their authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no advantage to you."
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