Vulnerable

I must say that this morning was filled with some amazing God things. I didn't think so at first because some things didn't work out so well. I woke up from a wrestless night sleep - most likely because I have so much to get done in a few days and not enough hours in the day. I am beginning our first women's group this Saturday called Watershed so that has been on my mind and I have been wanting God to reveal to me what he wanted me to do for this. Tim left to meet with some pastors which left me with the need to accomplish some work in the basement which we are trying to get done. As I began a specific part of the work I became very frustrated because it was not working out at all. So I just quit - and decided to leave this part for when Tim got home. This putting more pressure on because it would put me behind. so...

I decided I would take the computer and do some searching online hopeing to find direction for Watershed on Saturday. I found one resource I thought would work out, spoke to the saleslady on the phone and decided to wait until this afternoon to order it. I ended up finding this resource on audio online so decided to listen to it to preview it. wow - did God ever speak to me - and clearly told me this is what I was to use. My heart felt ministered to and it didn't take long before I was on my knees talking to Jesus. People, this is what he wants - he wants to minister to us, for us to sit at his feet and just drink from him. Don't just say a quick prayer now and then but really sit down and talk to him. Open up your heart completely, cry with him, share with him, tell him how you feel and ask him to just fill you up. What I mean here is GET VULNERABLE WITH GOD!

I was thinking about how many of us do silly things when we are in the house alone. Come on, we all know we do it. Some of us talk out loud to ourself, turn on the music full blast, dance around the house singing...etc. The next time your alone in the house really seek God, however it looks, it's ok. David did, remember? 2 Samuel says "and David was dancing before the Lord with all his might." David was rebuked by his wife Michal and responded to her "...and I will make merry before the Lord. I will make myself yet more contemptable than this..." It didn't matter to David what she thought but he knew his heart for God. Note here that Michal had no children to the day of her death.

Just give God all your heart and hold none of it back. He loves it and will tend to it. Your alone time with God will look different than mine. Awesome - just let him lead you. To God be all the glory!!!