Peace Be the Journey!

This morning brings a bit of a sadness in my heart. I want nothing more than to be there for a daughter in pain. I am so proud of her for holding on so tightly to Jesus who loves her so much. She and her boyfriend of 2 1/2 years are no longer together. The pain in her heart is real and I wish that I could take it away for her. I can love her through it - pray with her and for her but time and Jesus can heal her wounds.

It feels strange not to have Musta (our dog) greet me this morning. She was usually sitting by the the kitchen looking at me while I made my coffee or breakfast. Wagging her tail and waiting for her morning neck scratch. I am glad that she is out of pain.

God has been doing some serious clearing out in our life. The house seems different now. I sense that he is preparing us for the next step. He doesn't show us too far ahead though. Just gives us reminders that he has our life completely in his hands. I don't want Jesus to say to me what he said to his disciples when they were in the boat and the storm came. "Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?" Although I know that he could say this to me on any given day. I would love it if I would always have faith to a point where I don't fear. Yet when I do get afraid it is then that I need to crawl back to his loving arms and he is there to embrace me in his love and protection. He will hold me close and remind me that it's going to be allright. That he created the universe and he can and will take good care of me and our family. Don't be afraid, have faith.....sometimes I feel like the father in the story in Mark 9:24 "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief." We know that God has everything in our life in his hands. I want every day to lay at his feet, to remember and not forget what he has done for us. I love his love for me. I love Jesus and desire to grow even more in love with him.

Jesus, fill me.