So, I've always told everyone that I do not have the gift of writing. Never have been very good at that. I always think that what I write sounds dumb. Somehow today God is pushing me to blog, through my uneasiness I am doing it.
It's tough as a pastor's wife to blog about personal things in your life. Always a feeling that you are being judged and scrutinized for what is going on in your life. Being a pastor's wife to me has been very different than being a mechanics wife, and doctor's wife, a construction worker's wife (I use to be that) or anyone else. You can't fully understand it until you are in it.
I sit now at a very different time in my life. We currently are not at a church, but are waiting on the Lord to lead. We are completely in the palm of his hand. Praise God that our current situation was truly lead by God and him alone. When you know that you are walking in the will of God you don't question decisions that were made. Sometimes I get scared, sometimes I trust him so much, sometimes I doubt what he is doing, sometimes I am so filled with awe at his faithfulness to me and I am so humbled to be his daughter.
His provision for us these past 3 months has been beyond words. Why in the world do I ever doubt him? I ask myself that all the time. God said in Deutonomy 8 "remember and don't forget...." going on to talk about the ways that he provided for the Israelites. A good reminder for us in our tough times not to forget everything that the Lord has done for us.
I have so many stories to share but those will come later, as the Lord leads me to share them.
As for now, I am loved by the most amazing husband in the world. He loves me with a love that can only come from Christ, a deep, unselfish love. I am so blessed to have my Timothy. And wow, the family that God has put into my life. Our daughters and their husbands all walking with the Lord. What greater gift could a mother receive. I love you all more than words can say. You have been the most amazing support system ever!!!!!!!!!
Dancing.....
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Great to see you blogging, Pam! Looking forward to following along. :)
ReplyDeleteLove you mom. This is great!
ReplyDeleteWow! You sound just like me! God has done so many amazing things for us and has brought us through the place that you are in now. Amazing things are on the way for you! I'm glad that you're blogging. I have found it to be very therapeutic. :)
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