Within Me

Sometimes life is just hard. Sometimes I don't know what to do next. Sometimes I have no idea what God wants me to do. Where he wants me to go, who he wants me to speak to. Sometimes I feel insecure, scared, and filled with doubts. I could tell you that I always have it all together, but that's not the truth. I face challenges and doubts that hit me like a ton of bricks sometimes. I lead our women's group and sometimes feel so unworthy, so unprepared and wonder if I will screw it all up. Right now I feel like I have too much to do, that I have taken on way too much and letting some things go is something that God wants me to do - NOW. I can't worry about whether or not it will get done, just obey God NOW and let it go.

God has been speaking to me a lot today. First through Watershed this morning (with the ladies) as we heard a word on "fear", then again through my husband, and then again through a blog that my daughter wrote - mind you, one she got very "real" and vulnerable in. I am a work in progress and I always will be. I have awesome days in communion with God and I have days that I would rather curl up and cry. Whatever day it is God has it all. He is my creator, my friend, the one who will never leave me or forsake me. He is the one that I run to when all else fails. He is the one who always rescues me.

So today, I thank Jesus for being my friend who has promised to never leave me or forsake me. He has promised that he has plans for me, that he loves me. He has commanded me to be "strong and courageous" and to "not to be afraid". He promises to walk before me wherever I place my feet. He promises to guard my life and he promised to send the Holy Spirit to live within me. Within Me! Can it get any better than that? His spirit within us. And as Paul writes "My grace is sufficient for you."

Father God, be with each of us today and draw us ever closer to you. Rescue us who are in any pit of any kind and fill us new and fresh with you Spirit. Thank you for your faithfulness to us, even when we are unfaithful. Thank you for loving us - for loving me.